hmmm..hmmm..
Photoshop CS3 is out!!
time to use it <3!!!
Hmm...my grandma is falling ill..
I heard she looks very week.....
i saw her on mother's day..
she looks fine..
but nw...
everithing has change...
maybe de time has come..
i feel sad...
i feel like i wanna hug my bed....
i feel like showering myself with rain water n stay in dere..
i feel like drinking..
but..
promise is a promise....
planned to visit her todae..
but..
projects taken alot out of me..
mum is ill.
nida take care ..
im gonna break dwn soon again..
last time was during ite..
nw..
maybe..
haha!!!
i feel so stress dat..
i dun wanna talk..
dun wanna socialise..
dun wanna go out.
dun wanna online..
dun wanna blog..
dun wanna c n think of anibody..
im nt a caring person..
pls dun say i m..
i look ok at face but..
im actually..
evil!! cunning..!! wanna cheat everibody oni..!! i alwaes try to hurt ppl..!!
ok la..
nt funni..
well..
i wanna say..
y m i born naive..
y do i believe ppl easily..
y do i realli care abt wat ppl say..
y m i here...
hmmm say hello to ppl? make ppl smile fer de 1 sec n leave me after tat?
nah..
dun noe..my blog sukx//
it alwaes so negative..
im a low self esteem person from wat i c at de mirror..
im rather scare of falling in luv..
im scare of de parting time..
im scare of everithing.
im a loser...a coward.. im juz running awae from reality..
i look more like a story writer den facts speaker..
i alwaes repeat myselfs afew times..
cause...im such a nt so important person..
ppl haf to actually ask..
wat were u saying again..
after i repeat it like 5 times..-_-
NVM..aniwae....dis new blog is worst den my last..
at least i post pleasant thing in de past..
but nw no?
y maybe poly stress?
my projects piling up like fuck..!!
de amount of work i nida do oso like fuck..
tmr gt a interview..
gonna nid to think of questions again..
n to ppl..
if ya dun wanna talk to me juz tell me.
dun reply..
juz to entertain me..
im kinda sad n disappointed..
i dun talk so.?
im nt fun so?
dun talk to me den..
im nt like b4...
i may nt get angry?
yea..
but i gt a big fucking attitude..
dun talk to me if u c im in a fucking mood..
i dun wanna piss ppl off..
haizzz...
ahhh..
im so stress..
cn i slit myself with a knife..
is tat a dumbest thing i cn ever do..
i did tat..
de wound fade off without a scar..
maybe i shuld try harder..
so it leaves deeper..
drinking yea..
smoking yea..
i stopped..
but who says i cant go back to it!!..
no one rite..
drinking maybe nt..
i promised sumbody..
so i wont drink..
smoking..
yea..
no one cn stop me..
stress dun get over me pls..
b4 i start it again..
i cnnt take it animore..
i juz wanna disapear cn!!!
hmmm nvm..dun bother reading my post..i juz wanna shout..
tat all...i luv my grandma.
i might nt say it.
but i luv her..
i luv de food she cook..
i luv it when say she miss me..
i luv it when she touch my forehead..
i luv it ahh everithing..
she dotes me i noe..
ahh..i might juz turn silent again....
moodless..
everithing might nt be de same..
dun talk to me...pls..
if tat time comes..
juz leave me alone..
let me cool off...
aniwae..
nth else i said all i wanna said...
hate me..
go ahead..
tell me str8 in my face if u do..
dun stand behind me n gossip..
i dun like it...Labels: Moodless?Expressionless?